parking space

The other day I dropped my daughter off at the swim team only to realize she did not have her cap and goggles. I wasn't that upset about having to trek back across town to get the goggles, I was more upset about having to give up the great parking spot at the gym! That hour in particular is like "rush hour" at the gym so when you find a good spot you consider yourself lucky. I went and picked up her stuff and then returned back to gym, only to find that there was a new spot open that was I even closer than the one I was bummed to lose. Life lesson? I would say yes. Sometimes we are so afraid to let go of what is comfortable, but dear lord, when we do the world is waiting for us, calling us, inviting us. You may say but Annie that was just a parking space but no...it wasn't. Learning to let go and trust that what you need will be provided for or you will find it when you do let go....it is much easier to type than to do it. Letting go. Help me let go. I want so badly to breath in the world, to look out onto the endless horizon. I want to walk down dusty roads and look into the eyes that know pain but hold wisdom. To be in places that literally catch my breath, to be so afraid but so alive that I can feel my heart out of my chest. To look up into the sky and see the one million stars ...to stand in front of the ocean and throw up my hands, breathing in the pure air, to say Yes....but none of this can happen, if I don't trust that leaving the parking space is ok, that maybe it won't be closer but maybe it will be the space I need....